Yesterday, I binged...

It wasn't really that bad, probably what most people would consider to be normal but to me, it was awful.

I've got a pretty good excuse though - my mum has to go back on chemo next week. She's been worrying about me a lot and last night she was stressing about my weight so I forced some food down for her. I hate eating for other people but the last thing my mum needs to be worrying about is me and my weight...and I hope one bad evening won't do too much damage.

I'd like to say, for her, that I'll be making the same efforts today but unfortunately I can't. When it comes to food and my weight, it's probably fair to say that I'm pretty selfish - if I can't live with my body looking fat, I can't spend my life trying to male it bigger especially for other people.

In other news, I weighed last night post binge, while full of food. I was 10kg lighter than what I was a few months ago, with nothing in my body so I do feel a little better about it.

I'm volunteering today, instead of going to work so that's good because if means I'm away from all the fatties and their endless cakes and biscuits.

Oh and I want to apologise for not commenting on your blogs more :( I don't really have a good excuse but I am sorry and hope to do some commenting tonight after my run xxx